Maybe A Thing

 A common physics question turned philosophical goes as follows: If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound? I'm sure you've heard it before and I think the Wikipedia page does a good enough job explaining it, so that's not what I'll go into today.   But I was thinking about it recently and I thought of a follow up question: If you come upon a fallen tree, did it ever stand? As I write this, I struggle to coherently put the thoughts together, so we'll see where this post goes.  I've been thinking about a lot of concepts in my life and growth process recently, and I discovered a concept I struggle with still is consolidating my past self with my current self (and my future self, but that's making things too complicated).  One of my biggest challenges for me the past few years has been to live completely in the now: no regrets , no burdens; no letting the past hold me back from growing and learning in the now.  I notice...

I've been sending texts and emails the past week and it felt weird to not address the situation happening around us.  But I felt a little weird the first few messages because my intuition for some reason was to sign off with a "stay safe" signature.  Stay safe, from what??   The current environment makes it feel like that's the right thing to say, though, with people hoarding toilet paper, and buying extreme amounts of food I know they can't finish 1 , as if every biblical plague was about to happen.  But that's not the case.  I know that there's not going to be a  food shortage , I know we're not going to run out of toilet paper (since unless you use it, what's the use in getting more).  There are a lot of things I know, yet with the way everyone's behaving, I have also felt the fear of some imminent danger: the unknown.  So when I say "stay safe", who or what was I implying we stay safe from?  Each other?  I think I'll start l...

It's been over a week now since Tesla unveiled their newest creation, the Cybertruck, and what we can now refer to as windowgate .  If you've managed to escape the news cycle last week, here's what happened: Elon unveils new truck Truck is very un-truck like. Cue tension as people try to figure out how they feel about it. Elon talks about its steel frame and bullet proof "armor glass". A ball drop demo is used to show the difference between a normal piece of glass that shatters and a sample of the cybertruck glass that the ball just bounces off. Hammer time: Design lead Franz Von Holzhausen hits the front door with a hammer. Nothing happens!  Time to ball: But then, Franz tries to show off the unbreakable glass by throwing a steel ball at it and the unthinkable happens-- the glass cracks.   And then to add salt to the wound, when Franz tries again on the back door window, it also cracks.  And now, we have Elon, standing in front of his newest creati...

I had a conversation with my co-worker a couple of weeks ago about "fireside" chats that tech companies like to put on, and she share how annoyed she always felt when moderators would ask their interviewee "what was your biggest regret?"  The issue wasn't really with the question itself, but more with the answer that it always  got.  The answer would always be "I don't have any regrets--it all worked out!"  Or something along those lines.  She proceeded to explain that, well, of course you don't have regrets right now--it's easy to say that when they're in the position they're in (read: successful and enough so to be interviewed at this "fireside chat"), and everything has worked out in your favor. In other words, it's privileged to be able to say that you don't have any regrets. It's easy to look back and remember how you had regrets, but taken in the context of how it "all worked out", they wer...

OK so here's what's happened: On April 18th, 2019 this year, I tore my right ACL playing soccer.  On June 28th this year, I had it repaired surgically via a hamstring autograph.  I had it done at UCSF under the care of Dr. Ma--they did an amazing job!  I hate nothing more than pain and needles and did I mention pain, but they kept me comfortable and well taken care of.  But now that that's over with, I've been faced with the 6-9 month recovery that follows.  This is definitely the most intensive surgery I've had so far in my life, and I think it's going to be quite a process getting back to pre-ACL tear.  But, if there's anything positive coming out of this, it's that I'm finding the surgery and recovery process pretty interesting, so I'd thought I'd start writing about it and tracking my recovery.  Basically, the first week post-surgery was spent primarily on my couch, week 2 was more mobile, but still spent a lot of time layin...